God, Take This Child

Sweet child whom I never really got to know,
It's hard for me to let you go.
I waited and I wanted you.
I had so many dreams for you.
I think of smiles I'll never see.
I think of events that will never be.
There will be no first steps and no first teeth.
There is only a void and my own grief.
I planned to take you to places far and near.
I yearned to keep you safe and free from fear.
I hoped to show you much of your new world.
I wanted to teach you as your life unfurled.
It's hard to understand why you, my baby, died.
I feel so numb right now, many tears I've cried.
I have so many questions and no answers seem to come.
I tried so hard to save you; nothing could be done.
God, I stand before you broken-hearted
and ask you to heal these lives that must be parted
from this little one I can no longer hold,
who will always be a part of me, even when I'm old.
God, take this child in your loving arms.
No more can she suffer any harm.
Bless her always and bless me too.
Be with me and help me to make it through.